Narrative: the story, the juicy, the words we use to star in our own show! Here is my narrative you Naughty-no-it-alls
Once upon a time, there was a girl, born into a house that already had too many mouths to feed. She was born early with pneumonia, they thought she would not make it but she came into this world a fighter and so she has fought to create her whole life whether a fight was needed or not.
This girl was born into a home that had little time for her. She felt alone even when surrounded by her family. She did not see things the way her family did and was looked at as different out of control. She survived in the distance, never excluded but never included by her siblings as they were much older than she. She acted out, to be seen by her family.
She was an artist at masking her pain through anger and sarcasm. She learned to mask most of her symptoms so she could survive. She lied to herself and convinced herself that if she just pushed it all down and buried her pain deep, she could survive. Choosing to keep all outsiders out only reinforced her pain. She was judt getting by but wanted more. In order to live she had to search her soul. She was a time bomb and she was ticking away until she imploded.
She came to a crossroads, she decided to try therapy one more time.
She hoped that there was more to life than just surviving, she began to see Erica a therapist who finally helped her.
She has had many setbacks and several bouts of devastation but all of her guards are coming down and she and her therapist are beginning to go through the many layers of her past. together they are stripping away from the past and creating pathways to happiness.
She has found strength by leaning into her pain, she is becoming the person she always wanted to be, at peace with herself. While her struggle is far from over the path to salvation has been presented.
She now knows that real strength is not blocking the pain or masking it, but going through it and learning from it. She is a better person and she is truly grateful for everything she has gone through because it has made her who she is today and that person is truly f-ing amazing.
Thank you, Erica, for seeing what I couldn’t see and then making me see it too.