Narrative: the story, the juicy, the words we use to star in our own show! Here is my narrative you Naughty-no-it-alls Once upon a time,
I have considerable trouble with managing my mind as anyone with OCD and ADHD would. I am often in fifteen places at once, changing the channel with every thought. On a good day, I can complete eighty percent of my tasks but let’s face it, those days are far and few between. How do we with Adult ADHD manage it without being Miserable?
Adults, that have OCD have a range from meh to wtf? My OCD is somewhere on the mild side, but when combined with my other conflicting diagnoses it can get really messed up in here. Thank God, you know how I love a challenge.
I have spent a lifetime allowing others to define me by my subpar behavior, by my outbursts and my forgetfulness; By my high high highs to my low low lows But OCD will not control me.
Band-Aids cover the ouch’s for so long, they fix nothing and as my adult life fell apart. I began to take even more pills per day to calm me. Doctors have prescribed medications to me like handy’s from a three-dollar prostitute, quick and with little discretion. Medications work to slow the crazy but even at my best while on these drugs I feel 60-80% like a real person. My brain is fogged, my liver angry and the bipolar roller coaster was a sentence away from anyone with the courage to disagree with me. I was volatile, reacting in anger because f-them if they hate me, I hate them more… My adult self can see the childishness in that sentence and yet, using it. I was Assuming all over the place, and much like our local meteorologist, I was generally wrong.