Narrative: the story, the juicy, the words we use to star in our own show! Here is my narrative you Naughty-no-it-alls Once upon a time,
If you are anything like me, I am far harder on myself whether it was my fault or not. I will internalize and brutalize myself like a tough steak just pounding away obsessing over every detail. I can tell you from experience nothing good comes from internal beat downs. The best method for me is to breathe and circle back. Changing my thinking and refocusing my energy from kicking my own butt to maybe organizing the whole house, again. Go with what works for you.
I cannot change what has happened in my life. The choices I have made in the past have made me who I am now. Nor can I expect others to bow down before me because bad things happened that were beyond my control. In life, we play the cards we are dealt and sometimes that hand just sucks. Life is a hot mess, it is a lot easier to blame others for my unhappiness than to blame myself. Well according to Erica, my go-to guru, We control our own happiness, it is all on us to find our own path to happiness. My blame gaming has only ever held me back, I need to learn to forgive, let go and move on.
I have spent a lifetime allowing others to define me by my subpar behavior, by my outbursts and my forgetfulness; By my high high highs to my low low lows But OCD will not control me.
My reactions have been a distraction for my entire life. Panic filled reactions have screwed me so many times I feel like we are in an abusive relationship. I lose it and panic over things that really were not worth the panic they were paved with. The fun sparks that create an unbearable experience for myself and all those present have without a doubt made my rocky road into a cliff.